Dear 5 year old Zay

Dear Zay,
Today is your 5th birthday. I can't believe that you were born a whole 5 years ago. Woah.

I still remember the night that you decided you were coming. I remember it clear as day. You were two weeks early and I thought that I was just getting brackston hicks, so I didn't even think twice about actually being in labour. Surprise! I'm not going to bore you with my long labour story, but I realised at 11 at night that you were actually going to come within the next 24 hours and sure enough, you made me suffer until the next morning when you finally made it into the world. And I had to do it without drugs too. You meanie.

Now, I'm not going to tell you that you were cute, because even though you had the whole "I'm a newborn baby" thing going for you, you looked like an old man. Everyone disagreed but thats only because you have to tell a mum that her baby is cute. You looked like an old man, period.

But I tell you what mate, you were worth the pain, and the old man face didn't last long. Pretty soon you were too cute for my own good. Seriously, you had me wrapped around your little finger. 

That first night, you refused to sleep without holding me. You just wanted a finger to hold on to but that was so damn uncomfortable so, against the midwives wishes, I put you in bed with me, pulled up the rails to make sure you couldn't fall out, and we slept like that all night. It seems that there was no need for me to be worrying about you falling out though, because I woke up in the exact same position, holding you, as I had gone to sleep in 6 hours earlier! Didn't move an inch. See? I was protective of you from that very first night, and when we woke up, I was already wrapped around your little finger. So much so that you slept in our bed for almost a year!

We've had a busy, loud, stressful five years since!

You are such a beautiful little boy Zay, so loveable, so emotional. You are the kinda boy that everyone falls in love with! Your laugh is just so damn cute and oh my gosh the way you get excited about things! You jump up and down with so much energy, your big happy grin is ridiculously contagious. Gorgeous!

Your incredible emotions bring you so much trouble too little man! I tell you what! When you are happy, you are happy! Everyone knows it, you make sure they do. And when you are angry, oh boy, same rules apply! 

When you get angry you throw the most insane tantrums! Even now at 5 years old you know how to kick and scream. If someone, especially your brother or sister, pisses you off, they sure do hear about it! At least we know you will never let anyone walk all over you. And good for you buddy!

This year you started prep. At first you were so so excited about that, now you complain to me that it is boring. Despite your complaints, I know you enjoy it. Today I dropped a chocolate cake - your request - off to your classroom for you to share with your friends. You were so happy about having shared it. You have always been an amazing sharer. 

When Dad and I picked you up from school, one of your hands was blue. You told me that it is from painting. You are always covered in paint. And sand. And dirt. And texta. And food. You bring home beautiful pieces of artwork that you are so so proud of. And you can write now too! Something that you enjoy so much.

You and your brother have recently discovered Super Hero's. You guy's are simply obsessed! Last year you were into Disney Cars and Toy Story, but this new obsession has just taken over everything. Batman and Spider-man seem to be the favourites, with Iron Man and Superman not too far behind. I've gotta admit, I'm loving it. Seeing you two running around pretending to be super heroes, you both just seem so grown up! On Bailey's birthday I bought a Batman LEGO movie on iTunes. You guys have watched it at least once, sometimes three or four time a day since!

Before I end this letter, I'm going to interview you quickly to find out a few faves, for future reference and all:

Mum: "Hey Zay, Wanna answer some questions for me? So that I can write them down for us to read when you're bigger?"
Zay: "Yep!"
Mum: "Cool, thanks buddy."
Zay: "You're welcome"
Mum: "So, What's your favourite colour?"
Zay: "Um.. Blue"
Mum: "What about food?"
Zay: "Cake!"
Mum: "What food don't you like?"
Zay: "Um.. Um.. Tomatoes"
Mum: "Who is your favourite Super Hero?"
Zay: "Batman.. & Superman.. & Robin.. & Spiderman!"
Mum: "Why?"
Zay: "Because Spider-man makes webs & the other ones fly"
Mum: "Awesome, pick a number, any number"
Zay: "Um.. 13"
Mum: "What do you what to be when you grow up?"
Zay: "Um.. 13"
Mum: "Hahaha, If you could play a sport, what sport would you want to play?"
Zay: "Soccer & Tennis"
Mum: "How much do you love me?"
Zay: "Um.. 38 & 1 Million"
Mum: "I love you that much too! Thanks for the interview Mate"
Zay: "You're Welcome"

You have come a long way in your five years mate, and I am so proud of you. You stress me and dad out so much and if dad or I have gone grey by the age of 30, it will be your fault, but you are so worth it. I wouldn't have it any other way! And hey.. you had to have gotten it from somewhere hey! *Cough* Dad *Cough* ;-)

Happy Birthday Honey, I love you more than I ever knew possible and look forward to sharing many many more chocolate cakes with you!!

Love always and forever, 
Your Mumma xox