100 random facts about me

0. I love starting at 0 instead of 1.

1. I fell pregnant with my first child at the age of 16, only 2 weeks after her father and I started dating, we are still together now, almost 8 years later. 


2. My middle name is Jade.

3. I cry.. a lot.. like, about everything. They aren't always sad tears either.

4. I'm obsessed with organisation but find joy in occasionally throwing the routine out the window.

5. I love singing at the top of my lungs and wish I had the balls to sing in public (like at karaoke nights or something).

6. I have heart 'stuff' and am not supposed to drink alcohol or coffee or energy drinks, but I still drink coffee a few times a week cos it's that good from Zarraffes.

7. I'm a stress head, it's getting worse as I age.

8. I'm obsessed with crazy patterned pants.

9. Storms scare the crap out of me.

10. I love reading.

11. I banned "I can't" from our family's vocabulary's.

12. I have a habit of talking people into paying boardgames with me and then getting bored and wanting to quit 10 minutes into the game.

13. I have a favourite child - It changes constantly.

14. New people are always so sure that they have met me before, or I look like their friend/cousin/boyfriends brothers girlfriend.

15. When I was told I couldn't drink coffee anymore I replaced it with tea, I guess I get addicted to things easily.

16. I can't stand noisy eaters, it makes me SO angry, especially when they eat with their mouths open.

17. I'm allergic to morphine.

18. I have 4 half sisters, 1 half brother and 1 step brother who technically isn't my brother anymore, I only speak to 2 of my sisters and the one bro thats not technically my bro.

19. I have scoliosis.

20. I always want the latest gadget but hate technology with a passion.

21. I love technology as much as I hate it.

22. I am old school when it comes to reading, looking at my book collection cluttering the shelves makes me happy.

23. I'm not interested in watching sports on T.V at all.

24. Logan turned me into a bit of a nerd. I'd never even played XBOX before I met him and now I know how to play warhammer 40k.

25. I love taking photos.

26. I am short. It used to bother me, especially when I was picked on for it throughout primary and high school, now when people mention it I just wonder why the hell they care.

27. I look forward to my children becoming teenagers.

28. I talk in my sleep and my dreams tend to take on the theme of whatever I've watched a lot of recently.

29. I wear glasses and hate them with a passion. They hurt my head and nose. and constantly have smudges.

30. I still hope that I will get married one day, even though Logan always says he doesn't want to. I have my dress and flowers planned.

31. I hate cleaning without music on.

32. I get migraines a lot, like, almost constantly, so I'm pretty out of it from my pain killers 99% of the time. 

33. I want to move back to cold, wet Victoria because I miss my friends and family.

34. I want a really big, white, fluffy dog. 

35. I'm terrible at saving money - something is always begging to be paid.

36. I want to be a hairdresser, a photographer and an event planner.

37. I've had 2 operations on my spine.

38. I love leopard print.

39. I want to dye my hair hot pink as soon as I become a hairdresser.

40. Cooking makes me feel amazing. It is my therapy.

41. I didn't like chocolate before I met Logan. He was a chocoholic and gave me no choice but to eat it.. I still don't eat it often and when I do I only eat a few bites.

42. I'm seriously scared or magpies and huntsman's. I literally cry when huntsman's make their way into my house. Once Logan had to tell his boss there was an emergency and come home early from work to kill a huntsman for me. Another time I sat on the floor in my son's room and cried until Logan came home 4 hours later and turned the lounge room upside down to find and kill the spider for me.

43. I hate, more than anything, that Logan works night shift.

44. I have always wanted long hair and am in the process of growing it, but it annoys me so I wear it in a bun at the top of my head 99% of the time.

45. I wish I could tie my kids down while they sleep, when they move in the night the noises scare me

46. I wish I had the patients to have one more child.

47. I want to run my own business.

48. I have a foot phobia

49. I have low self esteem but fake high self esteem well.

50. I sleep with my balcony door open because I feel claustrophobic with it shut.

51. I like to go fishing as long as I don't have to touch the fish.

52. I love reading aloud.

53. I honestly don't believe anyone will read this far into my list.

54. I wanted to be a midwife until Logan and our kids told me they don't want me in a job where I would be gone more than not. I was shattered to give up on that dream, but my family come first.

55. I can't drive (or be in a car) with the windows up, it nearly makes me cry.

56. I've never had chicken pox.

57. I always forget about the scar down my back.

58. It makes me angry when random people casually ask me what my scar is from or my tattoo means, like it's their business.

59. My tattoo is exactly the same as my besties tattoo.

60. I took guitar lessons in primary school and played indoor soccer in high school.

61. I wanted a motorbike licence until I had kids, now I feel like I have too much to lose.

62. I hate planes and really don't want to get back on one to go back to VIC.

63. I have never had a speeding ticket or a parking ticket or been pulled over.

64. During my childhood we only moved house once that I remember, since moving out of home 8 years ago I have moved houses 13 times.

65. The first car I bought was a VS

66. I drank pretty much nothing but coke for 7 years, my teeth are suffering from it now.

67. I wish my bed was big enough that I could let my youngest still co-sleep.

68. I scored 95% on my written driving test and 100% on my practical.

69. The only reason it annoys me when males leave the toilet seat up is because I forget to check and fall in.

70. I laughed while typing #69.

71. I love blonde jokes even though I am naturally blonde.

72. I wanted singing lessons when I was a kid and my mum and friends mum said they would organise it but never did. I still wish they did.

73. I never tasted a 'peanut butter and jelly sandwich' until I moved in with Logan, I think it's weird.

74. It does my head in when people don't use grammar.

75. I like to make people laugh.

76. It annoys me when people put the toilet paper on the wrong way (yes, there is a wrong way).

77. I want a lancer.

78. My best friend of 10 years died when I was 14.

79. It annoys me when males wear pants without socks and shoes. Freaks me out really.

80. I'm not usually sexist. I think it's just because men have big feet and I hate feet. See #48.

81. I hate being alone but being in crowded busy places - like shopping centres - stresses me out.

82. When I cry, Logan cuddles me better (and, most of the time, laughs at me), the fact that he comforts me, even if I've cried four times that day already, makes me love him even more.

83. I take, on average, 9,000 steps on weekdays and 3,000 steps on weekends.

84. I believe that having money does, in fact, make people happy. And if it doesn't, then they should try being broke for a while.

85. I don't believe in karma.

86. I hate toilet training.

87. I love walking at night, but not alone.

88. I have completed a Business Diploma and Management Diploma and then got bored again and started on a Website Development Diploma since moving to Queensland 2 1/2 years ago.

89. I dont understand why, when offering money for something, people write the figure rather than say it aloud.

90. I take my youngest on a coffee date every Wednesday.

91. I have a teddy bear named Otis. I cuddle him to sleep.

92. I always get hungry just as I'm about to lay down to sleep.

93. My fave alcoholic drink is a Moist Pussy but I can't find them at any club here in Brisbane. :-(

94. I like Apple more than Windows.

95. I don't like gardening because the garden spiders creep me out and the sun makes my head hurt more.

96. I always wanted a 2 story house but now that I have one I wish I didn't.

97. I taught myself to sew by hand.

98. I swear way too much.

99. When I was 15 I went to the zoo in Adelaide with my family and a friend, a monkey stole my bracelet and then refused to give it back. The sneaky shit.

Words, Blogging & Lonliness

I love words. I love reading them, writing them by hand, typing them. I love talking (my Mum will confirm that - she always told me I talk too much, which is probably true). I love how words can express things so well, and also, I love how sometimes they just can't.

I'll never be a true writer, I'm not talented in writing, I don't have a way with words like many do, but that won't stop me from using them to express the way I feel, in the many ways that words can. 

I like writing things for myself, and I like writing for you too. I know I'm not writing some wonderful piece that will make millions flock here to read, but if even just a few of you read my words and tell me you liked them then that makes it worth it.

I've always had a few close friends in my life. They changed over the years, but I have never been alone. I've always had people who I can talk to without judgement and it's such a wonderful thing to have. Friends that are just there for you, there to listen, there to talk, there to sit in silence with you. That right there is irriplaceable.

Since being in QLD I have had to rely on written words so much more. Other than my man, other than my kids, I don't have anyone here. The few people I have met already have their lives with their friends in it and I just can't seem to fit in there. Though I have tried. I have tried making friends, and I like to blame my friendless-ness on QLDer's (well, I've never had an issue with making friends before!) but maybe it is the fact that it is just harder when we get older, or maybe it is me not getting out enough (obvs I'm a tad busy to be sweeping the streets for friends) or maybe they just don't like me for some reason? but whatever the issue is, it leaves me in the same place. Alone with my keypad.

And that is where my blogging started. I, of course, message my girls daily, how could I not? But there is a huge difference between hanging out with people, and just chatting via instant messages. The messages help. They keep me in contact with the people I love and they keep me from feeling alone at night while my man is at work, but they just don't quite fill the gap, almost, but not quite.

So I just decided maybe the thing to do here is to just do it more. To write more. So I found blogger, and I found you guys, and now this is what I do. Because I love words, because I love people, because I love to share my life. Because you, my readers, help to rid me of that void that is my loneliness. 

You don't do much to make yourselves known, but I see you there, and you help. And I hope that here, you may find words, if written poorly, that help you in some way. Even if it be fairly insignificant.

If you have been thinking about starting a blog, I say do it. Blogging for me has just been amazing. It is not just all the things I mentioned, but relaxing too. Sometimes I feel like I have no words available, like I couldn't possible find a way to express to you my feelings, my life. Sometimes when I have a terrible day, like today, I wonder how I could ever find a way to talk to you without sounding overly depressed and dramatic. Without being a downer. Boring. But I do (maybe, maybe you are bored?). 

Somehow the words just come to me. And they relax me. They leave me feeling just wonderful because surprisingly those shrinks who tell you to write things down, actually do know what their talking about. So give it a go!

The coolest thing about blogging is that unlike Facebook, your not writing just for your friends to read, you don't need to think about what they would and wouldn't be interested in, because your writing for the world. And your readers will find you. And there is just something so cool about that. Those people reading, they are not there pretending to be interested but really rolling their eyes, they are there because they want to be. Your supporters aren't people just trying to make you feel good because they are your friends or family and it's their job, they are doing it because they actually do believe in you. In your words.

This is something I want to get Izzy in on. Writing can give you so much. I want her to be able to express herself. I want her to know that her words are important. And I want to hear what she has to say!

Well, that's why I do this. What do you think? Is it for you?

Yours in this crazy crazy world,

Sami :-) x

The reason I don't refer to my children by their true names

This post was originally a part of my A little about me & my family post but I felt that it was so important that it needed it's own post.

The first thing you may notice, if you know myself or family personally, is that on my blog I name my children with pseudonyms. Names that are not their true names. The reason for this is privacy. I intend for this blog to be a very personal place for me to write and in doing so I need my children's privacy to stay intact. At the time of writing this, my children are 6, 4 and 2. Currently anything I write about them here or anywhere on the Internet, any information I give out to you, does not affect them. But that wont always be the case. When they are older and start using the Internet, and their friends use the Internet, it will then become, to a certain supervised extent, their choices as to what will be publicly given about themselves. It would not be fair to them, for me to just hand over any information I like, and if I did use their true names, their friends would be able to just google them and find all this information at their fingertips.

For this reason I ask that if you know my children, please, do not refer to them here, or anywhere that I have not, by their true names. 

Thank You.


Yours in this crazy world of parenting,

Sami :-)

A little about me & my family

Some of you may know me, if not in person, then from A Little Bit of Everything. If you do, Welcome to my new blog. If you don't, well, Welcome to my new blog!

You know when you're writing something and you know there is something wrong but you just can't fix it? Or fixing it just seems like, too much, and so you know within yourself that you just have to start again, even if everyone else doesn't see it?

Yeah, that.

Just, that.

Well anyway, lets get on with it yeah?

For those of you know do not know us, HI! I'm Sami, I love crafts and the kitchen, organization and being busy. I'm currently studying, four days a week on-campus and three off, to obtain my diploma of Website Development. Since becoming a mum just after my 17th birthday, I have completed year 12 and obtained my Diploma of Business and Diploma of Management, as well as worked in a number of hospitality businesses.

My loving husband (who is not quite my husband), Logan. He is a hard worker and a wonderful father. He is funny, the coolest nerd I've ever met and holy crap I love him. Like that kind of full on love that knocks you on your arse and then just as you think you can get back up and breath, it does it again. That kind of love. He isn't around too much as he works night-shift but we get by.

My daughter, Izzy, is the eldest child, although being a good influence for her brothers isn't at the top of her agenda. She is beautiful, of course, and loud, and funny and oh so loving. She is a girly-girl but also a bit of a rough nut. And a sook, boy is she a sook! But it's okay because she gets it from her Mumma. Izzy is in year 2 at school this year and is so far a high achiever. I couldn't be prouder.

Zay is my big four year old boy. He is over-energetic, LOUD, also loving and very sooky. I guess he got it from me too. He loves to do anything so long as it's with other people as he isn't a fan of being alone at all. He just started Prep this year and is doing wonderfully. He is so enthusiastic about learning which is just beautiful to see.

Bay is my baby. He will be three in just a few short weeks and I'm having one hell of a time accepting that. He is currently going through a 'scream-at-everyone-for-everything' stage, which is just adorable as I'm sure you can imagine. Bay is a serious mumma's boy which I love as the other two have become fairly independent in their 'old age'. He just moved up to the Sr Kindy room at his daycare this year, which is totally terrible for me as it means I have to accept the fact that he is no longer a baby, but wonderful for him because it means he gets to play in the big kid playground with the cool pirate ship sandpit.

Well that's my family and a small introduction into my life. I hope to see you around here again.


Yours in this crazy world of parenting,

Sami :-)